No, I am not engaged :)

No, I am not engaged... hahaha I just thought that I would clear that up. There have been a lot of people lately who though for sure that John was going to propose over Thanksgiving, despite what I said about it not happening. I would just like to clear that one up. We are not engaged, and won't be even over Christmas. :)

I do love him though, tonight I had a pretty rough go of things. For some reason I was really really tired and I didn't feel well at all and I just wanted to cry, so I did exactly that. I just let go and cry and cry and cry. Poor John was trying to figure out what my problem was, and I couldn't even tell him, because I didn't know. He just held me and let me cry.

Tonight (after the crying fit) we were watching Elf. Holy cow, if you are ever curious about how our relationship is. Think of that movie. It was roughly every 5 minutes that we would turn to each other and be like "that is so you!" or "he learned that from you" it was the best. For instance, Buddy is a huge huge candy eater, and so am I, I LOVE sugar!! I also love to skip and do stupid things like turning around and around and around in the little twisty turn doors. John on the other hand is a lot like Buddy with just the comments and things he says. The thing that sticks out the most is when Buddy calls his Dad and they talk and his Dad is trying to get off the phone and Buddy just keeps changing the subject, then when he finally agrees to get off the phone Buddy says "I'll call you in 5 minutes!" That is John right down to center. He does that constantly! It doesn't matter if I am at work, asleep, or bored. I love it! That is another thing I love about John.

On top of his complete goofball personality he can be very spiritual. We are able to get into deep spiritual discussions and learn from each other (even though, I think I learn more then he does because he is a genius with the scriptures). I can ask him almost anything about the Gospel and he will either know the answer or look it up for me.

John spoils me completely rotten. Whenever I am cold he will wrap me in a hug and warm me up. He pays for everything everywhere we go. He opens/closes doors for me. He will pump my gas for me so I don't have to stand in the cold. He will take care of me in any situation. I remember a time when I threw up at his house, and he just laid next to me and held me until I was feeling better.

I think sometimes he cares about my health more then I do. He will do anything in his power to make it so I am not sick or feeling well. If I have a headache he will rub my head. If I need to eat, he will fix me food. If I need more sleep he will stop talking to me so I can go to sleep.

I met his parents and brother and sister in law this Thanksgiving weekend. I fell in love with them. I was really sad to say goodbye to his parents. I grew really close to them in the 2 days that I was with them. They are excellent people, and it makes sense where John gets it from.

I love his ability to make me laugh uncontrollably. He always knows what to say or do to "turn my from upside down."

He is so incredibly patient. My schedule is pretty nuts, especially when I am on call, however he is patient and will just deal with it. He is very good at biting his tongue and letting me rant and rave without losing his head. 

John supports me in everything I do. He may not like my schedule, or the way I do things, or always having to do things that he doesn't care for, but if it is important to me, then he will support me and just bear with me through it.

I love him for so many more reasons then I have listed here, he is the greatest! I know, I am a mushy girl, but hey it is 12:30am, I am tired, and an emotional wreck, and John left about an hour ago and I was just thinking about how lucky I am to have him in my life. No, I am not engaged and I won't be for a very long time. I know that this post isn't exactly one that will help my not engaged theory, but it is true, don't get too excited yet. Just know that I love him and I think that he is the greatest.

I love you John, thanks for everything you do.

Love JaNae