When reality gives you a swift kick in the butt

For those of you who don't know, I struggle with school. Not that I am stupid or anything it is more of a... well let's just say I think or should I say thought it was the most pointless waste of time and money at least for me. Because all I want to be when I grow up is a mom. I don't want to have to work, odds are against me on that but I am determined to beat the odds. Then today as I was driving my brother to the eye doctor I was listening to my favorite morning radio show and they were talking about holiday disasters.

This is where reality pretty much hit home. A lady called into the station and said that her husband was putting up christmas lights when he slipped off the roof and broke his back, or broke something or another. I got thinking, you know accidents do happen, and you can't just trust that the Lord is going to keep your family out of harms way. All along people would use examples like "JaNae you need to get an education because what if your husband dies from some disease?" or "What if heaven forbid you get a divorce?" and I just kept thinking ok...ok I understand that but hopefully God will take care of me enough to not let my husband die because that would just not be good at all, and divorce... that just isn't an option for me, a former teacher of mine (Brother Mead) and I have talked about divorce, and family relations enough that I know what I am looking for in a spouse, I know where I need to get married (the temple), and all of that fun stuff, and I am not going to be swayed in any direction besides the direction I am headed. So, divorce will never ever ever be an option.(Yes, there are those few "what if's" but we aren't talking those.)

With all my stubborn attitude I always would tell myself that getting an education has to be the most pointless thing ever! So quite honestly 3 semesters of school later I am now begining to care. It's never too late right? I just get to eat mistakes the rest of my life... anyways back to my point.

I got thinking that just normal day to day stuff can happen, my husband could be a wonderful driver but that doesn't stop some stupid driver from plowing into him and hurting him for several months, years, even a life time. He could be doing chores for me like hanging christmas lights on the roof (because EVERYONE needs christmas lights!) and he could slip and fall and break both arms and a leg and be out of work for several months. Who knows there are so many things that could potentially happen that isn't a BIG oh no! "What if 's"

So since all of the EXTREME "What if 's" are not enough to scare me into getting an education, I have decided that it isn't the EXTREME stuff I need to be worried about because chances are they won't happen (knock on wood, I probably just jinxed myself) but statistically I should be ok from the big stuff it is the small day to day stuff that I need to be worried about. From this point on I am going to start caring about my education and get my life prioritized according to the Lord's way NOT JaNae's way! Because "if you keep doing the same things, you will keep getting the same results"

So there is my story!! :)